athai kooda vaa nee maranthuvitaai

atharkullavaa nee maranthuvitaai

pretty song from jayam kondan to be watched with the clip.......

had dance class like everyother day...but today was experimental work..quite fun n all =)
my gd fren had juz asked me to come for a holiday at aussie ...argh how i wish i cld go.....
my all time wish has been always to travel travel travel......but rite now im nt in the fin status to.....
once i start a job i'll make sure i go for a holiday least once a yr....
but before tat i hope i can squeeze in this aussie visit highly unlikely but lets see how......
"krishna do u wan me to have a well deserved break??........not to see u in india but to have the aussie holiday....do u?"

BitterSweet.....

so its been almost 2 months since i last blogged....
so much has happened

firstly my arrangetram is over!!! i still cant believe i did it....
it was an amazing experience and im so glad tat everyone was pleased with my performance...
a late start but nevertheless i hope to slowly but surely further my knowledge in music....

job hunt is wats currently taking place rite now.....applying n awaiting replies rite now .....lookin more in to the govt sectors so ya pray i get a job soon!

today is a special day ........
the day beloved theeban departed this world for a better place ... i din know him for a long time but the time i got to know him, we got really close n in fact he was my only audience while i used to practice my singing .. at tat time i was preparing for my very first dance show, as in i was singing for it......i guess most of the times he's actually fall asleep while i sang coz the songs were really really boooring n also coz of his meds n all but nevertheless he'd always say its nice n give his generous gifts of encouragement.
my arrangetram had a dedication for him and i truly felt his presence while singing the song....when i listen to myself i can actually hear my voice crack through the song n theeban juz to let u know that was the fav song for most on that day!!! so thank u darling ...... luv u loads angel....

today is also a special day
coz my dear fren rathi got engaged.....not many get to live a fairy tale and this princess is really blessed to have had such an awesome event today.... it was really beautiful and im very happy for u rathi....

its just about 10 days to the big day....... everyone around me is saying that i seem very cool.....the truth is i know im prepared i have the blessings from god and from alot of great ppl and all that will get me through it....i know the 18th will be a super scary day...... but all i pray for is that i'll nt panic and tat everything will go smoothly.....
it was only since july that intense learning and practice started so though technically i should have started last oct it was only full force since july and for such a short time i think ive prepared sufficiently.....
im nothing but over confident infact confidence is what i lack in the most.... and i let it get in my way.....problem with me is i guess im too hard on myself...even if everyone says i did a good job i won be satisfied and the fear of being imperfect gets the better of me...but nw im preparing myself mentally for the big day.... i guess its human to err so i gotta take it in my stride and not think too much abt wat cld go wrong.....

there is so much of stuff to prepare and never did i think tat so close to my arangetram i'd still be doing things....i wish frens n family wld take over it all but my all are very busy with work and all tat its just me n mum doing it all....and also preya without whom i think i'd have gone mad..........she's my smiles and the reason for me to have been sane throughout the past few months.......
though there is so much of shopping and orders to make and a perpetual list of 'to-do's' im loving every moment of it......its the most fun i've ever had!
next thing to look out for is......................POST-PARTY!

ITS MY BIRTHDAY !!

this year i had an amazing time on my birthday....... for those who know me u should know tat im not tt much into a big bash but more of the simple dinner sorta person n i had tat this yr......
ganesan surprised me with the help of arvind and preya and though i kinda found out thanks to appu i was very touched by the gesture.....
the best birthday is not one tat u have loads of presents n the wHOLE world calling to wish u but one that u spend beside u're loved ones with their totful gifts.....everyyr my favourite gift comes from durga coz every yr she either makes me a card or writes a card out for me n it means most to me....this yr got extra chocolate also...which tasted so good la!lol loved it.......

the gifts i received this yr
card = $5.00
cake= $30
pizza=$30
pasta=$30
desserts=$30
........
love
&frenship=$????? PRICELESS

SO THANK U DARLINGS!!!

had rehearsal today....... saw my main piece....kinda have a rough picture now.....i can feel tat im improving but still far far away from perfect....alot more work to do....

was juz watching ippadikku rose online ....was abt black and white magic......very interesting to watch it....as hard as it might be to believe there is some sense to all of it......
usertube.com episode18...do check it out in ya free time.......

believe can make or break a man....... if really want something belive strongly in it n it will happen.....if u fear too much abt something bad to happen it is most likely for that too to happen so be carefull in wat u think say n believe in....always be positive.....if u wan something...tell u'reself everyday tat this will happen n before u know it .... it will happen........
the repercussions of it however u have to face it too suppose wat u want is not wats best for so tats why the earlier caution abt being careful..... so gonna hit the sack now dam tired.......

kuravanji is finally over....so back to the normal 9-10 class from Sunday on.....argh.....

i missed performing in this production as i knew i won be able to commit as much...so i juz stuck to helping out with other things...tried to do as much as i cld fer it.....

the show on the overall was very nice.....im very proud of all my class girls....fantastic job by each and everyone of them.....felt very proud to watch em dance on stage.....

its 53 more days for my big day.....still have alot of memorizing to do ...i think past 2 weeks i've slackened alot due to having had fallen ill n juz being lazy......gotta double up n all.....next week full music rehearsals are likely to start.....so far have only seen first half n final song....seems not to bad i'd give my self 30%.....i juz gotta pay more attention to detail n i shld be there......

im really worried abt my stage fright thingey.....hope i can get to have as many full rehearsals as possible so tat the on show day it won be so nerve wrecking....
juz thinking abt it makes me nervous....well lets juz hope fer the best.....

today i met preya after like ages..... we had so much to catch up on...... i had a great day babe...thank u!...
then when to 'nasty' n did some production work for the weekend's show..... i miss dancing alot....but well.....gotta finish up my arrengetram first then can go back to my normal life....lol...

the days are nearing ... its only 2 more mths to go....freaky but freaking out is not gonna make time go by any slower.... still i cant help but freaking out.. argh!!! i juz hope i will do justice to all these people having so much of hope in me..... there i times i juz feel so lazy or sick to practise...like the whole of last week...wanted to take a day of break by going to sentosa n after that ended up sick n nt practising the whole week....*sigh*

well i guess maybe a retreat sometimes might be a gd thing...lets see if my theory is true or not ya.....

been long since i last blogged n so much has happened ever since....al i can hope is it does nt repeat.....

i went to watch dhool n support arvind n he did a spectacular job......watching him juz makes me feel so good.....im so proud of him.....i world has bigger things in store for him....success might be slow but when it comes it'll be a super hit! i know it will n i have full confidence.....

so all i wanna say is i love u always my dear frend......n its juz such a pleasant experience watching u perform on stage....!

Un Punnagai, Naan Padikkathe Kavidhai
Un Kangal, Naan Mayanggiya Naatkal
Un Koonthal, Naan Aadiya Unjal
Un Thozl, Naan Uranggiya Nimidanggal
Un Ithal, Naan Rasitha Alazghiya Madal
Un Nizhlal, Naan Nerunggiya Sontham
Un Kathal, Naan Virumbiya Mothal.

Your smile, the poem i never read
Your eyes, the days i was captivated
Your hair, the swing i played
Your shoulder, the minutes i slept
Your lips, the beautiful letter i adored
Your shawdow, the relation i grew close to
Your love, the bump i love.

today i woke up feeling so sick....with flu n sore throat ......hai!well took meds n was feeling better half way through the day.....then went to watch dark nite at sun plaza......joker's acting was very good.....

n i have a new found love.....yup 2 songs.....'ore piya' and 'is pal'....its juz so romantic ,........my oh my......im in luv with both of em.....hee hee!!

sunday was my photoshoot n it went very well....a big thank u to durga and her dad for sponsoring the photo shoot for me...it means so much to me for them to have done this for me.......luv u babe!

the arrengetram is appearing more real with the days passing by.....im nervous at the same time falling sick...been down with sore throat flu body ache n all....feel lousy......

past 2 days have been rough but i have wonderful frens arnd me whom i can tok to n that has made me feel so sooo much better.......n big thanks to god for giving me such beautiful ppl....

Isaiyil thodanguthamma... [paadum office]

this gal is juz fantastic......and she's rendered mastero illayaraja's song like no other i feel...to sing this song life like tat is beyond tough with so much of feel ....

and most importantly with krish malarntha mugam ...... this is clip is one of my fav's

ninaika therintha maname unakku marakka theriyatha
pazhaga therintha uyire unakku vilaga theriyatha
mayanga therintha kanne unakku uranga theriyatha
malara theirntha anbe unakku maraiya theriyatha



such beautiful words ...i love to sing these words to myself wheneva i feel kinda down or low in energy tat includes anger too.....juz singing this song can rekindle my soul.......wonderful words n wonderful song......

something horrible happened today n im so kicking myself for it....it may not seem to be my fault directly but im to be blamed......some ppl work so hard for an earning n on top of that set aside the thought to help others excel.....of coz one can say 'i din ask him to help!?' if one chooses to say that, which is prob wat will happen, then let me say congratulations u have incurred one new karma...

i hope u know im referring to u n i also know i've apologised a million times but still im sorry this had to happen......i feel so upset to have put u in this situation....n im indebted to u for the damage i've caused u ...... sorry =(

today was a simple day ...went to waterloo for class which was not too bad....then headed down to meet arvind......im very proud to know someone like him. today he shared with me how unconditionally loving his immediate and extended family is to him but wat i feel is that his good nature is wats blessed him with so much of love.......

was juz thinking randomly and tot of the whole idea of denial......sometimes u tend to deny things because u understand the repercussions of it or plainly because u juz freak out...but once things settle down u tend to ponder on the wat if's......so juz live life to the fullest ....do all u can and dun regret not having had done things or wonder wat u wld have been if u had taken a certain move.....
in brief everything happens for a reason...wats meant to be will prevail............

as ususal very long since i last blogged....well from then to now.....the rooms are finally settled my sister's reem os a beautiful red colour......n the com is also in her room so i dun quite use it as often anymore sadly........

recent happening in my life is im helping my good fren in his telemovie project by acting in it......to start off my acting sucks but last min he could not get a gal to act......lol it was a weird experience actin g in it especially because i dun quite have experience in it delivering dialogs n all are really new for me ....oh well today was the last day of shoot n all went superbly well i think i was the sore thumb in the whole movie hahahaha....

this movie experience was something different n i met some very talented boys in the process....their creativity is astounding ...im really proud of these boys n hope they make it big in this field. i also learnt something new about myself ...dun quite wish to share it but its a rather uncomfortable feeling.....guess it'll go away soon so rather not ponder upon it too much...

there goes june......my oh my...the yr is passing by so quickly! yesterday seems so far away while tomorrow seems juz too soon.....

its been a busy time since the end of exams....major revamp in my house.....sis n i finally gotten our own rooms so the splitting of the clothes and jewelery and all the other stuffs...!
gosh i din know it cld be so leche....im still sorting n splitting ....

also been busy preparing for the arrengetram i still cant believe that im doing it..lol...gotta perfect all the pieces and its so difficult....i mean of coz juz memorizing stuff is not a problem.....but doing improvisations and using own creativity.....its so hard! i juz never utilized my creative brain for so many yrs.....n now its difficult....classes are also on an everyday basis......but
well all the hard work will pay off...i pray it will..... i know it will.

And yes......finally my exams are over!! i've never felt more relieved before coz the next step is the working world.... well im juz praying i get a job by November........ yea!

well 2 wonderful things juz happened my good fren got engaged and my best fren got married......so wonderful to watch them finally setting off into the next phase of their lives......these gals n i have gone through highs and lows....nursed each other broken hearts from love and so many other things....and now finally they've found settled and tied the knot!cant express juz how happy yet sad i am ....sad coz my best fren is settling overseas...which means i would almost never be able to see as often as we used to.......it sad but wat to do.......seeing her tie the knot juz got me thinking how i wld react when she leaves....i know i'd cry a bucket coz even thinking abt it brings tears to my eyes......
but to think about it i know it wld be worse for her to live away from home starting a new life at a new place with no family to help her through it.......all i pray for is for her to live happily ....i know god will bless her good heart with only the best of everything......and with that thought i think i'll end my blog....feeling kinda sad

cck farmart

cck farm mart cafe.....

a super place which has been around for really long but juz recently discovered by me...it has got really fantastic bbq chicken wings hot plate toufu and all the other kinds of seafood stuff n it tastes really good....the taste is very original...the last i tasted something like tat was like back in the late 80's.....and there is also this cafe and wine bar which has got such an amazing ambience....away from all the bustle of the city its super quiet and dimly lit with candles and even ice water is served in wine bottles.....im juz in love with the place....my recommendation from the cafe is the coffee with rum and raisins ice cream......great tasting....they even have western food and many kinds of aussie wines......

so those whom are juz sick of all the boat quay and town hype and want a quite retreat this is a super place.....

oh ya and they have some fishing thing also dunno wat exactly it is but i know gotta pay for it.....this is all in the night.....
in the day time i think there are lots of pet shops and stuff like tat its a farm after all ...i yet to go in the day.....heehee....

to get there u gotta take a shuttle bus from opp cck lot one there is a bus stop n the shuttle bus come every half hourly 430 500 530 and so on.....its 50cents to take the bus....

for those driving well follow this map i say!! =)

still having exams......

well im still in the midst of exams...which explains why the long gap between now and my last post...well juz a little bit more...i juz gotta keep fueling till the 10th of june....

well recently been hearing alot of new...3 of my best frens one i getting married next month...one getting engaged also next month and another is pregnant!...how wonderful rite...! last week i went to mustafa looking for a wedding gift....bot a couple watch ... n she loves it hee hee....i think watches at mustafa is a super good buy ...some brands are weird like Giordano...never knew they sold watches but they were quite good.......some watches like DKNY was like at a low of $120.....greats buys they have there....

well with so much of good news around im hoping that my sister and my other lovely galfrens will meet the 'one' soon..... =) ....well i think i'll disappear after this post for a while...after exams i'll do regular posting of pics and blogs ya..till then tata!

my fav cappucino at mac cafe...'i'm lovin it'
my new yellow dress thanks to ambi!

a lousy turned great thanks to my dearest Micky !! was really stressed out with finishing up my revision and all and same time had to go for some events which i could not avoid not going for and ended up feeling super tired and lethargic at the end of all the fuss..........
it was at the midst of all this that i got a sweet little gesture .....a box of chocolates from mickey who came all the way down to my place juz to cheer me up a bit.....
thank u so much for everything......u are my sunshine!!!

exams are really scary.....while walkin to the exams hall last week i really tot i was gonna 'peng san' i was tat nervous......!i dunno why i get such horrible jitters before exam all the time......thus is the next paper....my worst subject n im so scared for it so my dear frens pls pray for me.....argh.....as for now im gonna wind down a bit by going down to 'jalan jalan' at the pasar malam near my place then after which hit the books.....
got so much of plans after exams and catching up on my music also.....cant wait ......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

TO MY DEAREST FREN ARAVIND .......A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY...... MAY U BE BLESSED WITH LOADS OF GIFTS OF LOVE AND HAPPINESS ON THIS SPECIAL DAY

Today was the first day of exams...gosh it was dam nerve wrecking ...bt i had lots of wishes from all my close ones...........paper went well i would say i managed though it.... nw time to prepare for the next paper on the 22nd......
after paper i went for dinner at tampines mall at this place called Veittai....the food was quite good i muz say...to eat hot tom yam soup n rice in this cold weather was quite shiok.....
on my way to the tampines interchange i saw a huge crowd around this guy doin some street art n selling it....it was juz spray cans and doing some kind of graffiti art.....hmm i could nt understand what that guy was painting so i jus stood around awhile n left.....n i tot....imagine someone doing something like this hard to understand gathers a crowd and makes them so inqusitive that they actually stay there to see wats happening......but the real thing is happening behind them.....they get pickpocketed!!! hahahahaha....well juz an imagination la pls ah dun try this kind of things n get into trouble......

EXAMS....ARGH...!

Exams are almost about to start for me....my final yr n im really nervous about it....for once i can sAY i've prepared much ahead of time but i juz keep forgetting all the stuff n end up doing it over and over again....very frustrating but what to do.......no choice....

this exams my fren from SIM devi has been coming to my houSe to study with me n its been a real motivation to have her here daily...thanks babe for everything.......! may this be the start to a wonderful frenship in the yrs to come......


wed is my first paper and last paper is on june 10.....as afraid as im for it to come i cant wait for it to be over also.......hahaha.....well wish me luck ppl...i need loads of it to keep myself cool during the paper and bag as much marks as possible...... =) have a great day....

Pictures.....

African Mother

Iranian Mother....
Eurasian Mother.....

Indian Mother......
Chinese Mother.........

Mother's Day

wishing my wonderful mother .... all of the mother's reading this and all the women out there who wld be mother's in future a very happy mother's day.....

a beautiful day for all of us to reflect on our mother's unconditional love for us....mothers may at many times irritate us or even seem insensitive at times but in fact they wld be acting in such ways with only their children's well being in mind...this might nt always be a right action but it goes to show how mother's are to their children........

this yr i had a wisdom tooth surgery done and during that one week my mother had been so sweet to me......since i cld not really chew my food well n all, my mum actually fed me food the whole week....wat so great one might think well imagine doing it for 1.5hrs coz i took such a long time to chew even the tiniest piece......she did it.... n she sat there tirelessly feeding me in small bitez till i finished my food and im so thankful to god for having had given me my mother......

i love u mother and i know u do so too....... =)

Some Cute Stuff.......

A 5th grader asked her mother the age-old question, 'How did I get here?'Her mother told her, 'God sent you.'
'Did God send you, too?' asked the child
'Yes, Dear,' the mother replied.
'What about Grandma and Grandpa?' the child persisted.
'He sent them also,' the mother said.
'Did he send their parents, too?' asked the child.
'Yes, Dear, He did,' said the mother patiently.
'So you're telling me that there has been NO sex in this family for 200 years?
No wonder everyone's so damn grouchy around here.'



Little Morris returning home from his first day at school and asked his

mother, "What's sex?"His mother, who believed in all the most modern

educational theories, gave him a detailed explanation, covering all aspects of

the hard to explain subject...to a six year old.

When she had finished, Little Morris produced an enrollment form which he

had brought home from school and said,
...."Yes Mommy, but how am I going to get all that into this one little square?

First blog.....want a beautiful smile?

welcome to my blog....well used to have one at frenster but well guess i wanted more so yup started on this......reason? well nothing in particular suddenly came up with the idea of having one n started on it......hope all of my frens will enjoy reading my posts .....

well something i had been thinking of for a Long time why ppl in india drink in 'tumbler' n make sure their lips do not touch the cup? initially i tot hygiene is the reason and even tot it was rude to drink in that way as it makes one feel tat u dun trust the cleanliness of their house.....but now i realise the reason is far from that....
i presume its coz of the staining that coffee n tea causes on our teeth and also the damage that carbonated drink when in contact with our teeth. apparently carbonated drinks have the ability to dissolve u're teeth !!! scary but true.....
so i guess from today on i'll try to lift the glass up when i drink or atleast use a straw to make sure my teeth last me for the rest of my life....lol